Deviant Wave – not all waves of the sea soothe you!
Each time that I strive for answers, the changing colors of the sea tell me that I am not alone in my dubiety! That I too like the sea, am a creation of leisure that has always been interpreted in haste!
and then there are these moments too…
When I started blogging, I didn’t have any clue about the person who commented on my posts! NO freaking clue! Mainly because I hardly got hits, but we shall ignore that!!!! And then suddenly the world realised that ‘Drama’ was indeed missing from their lives and Lo after Vir Das I was coveted (aah well let’s keep the magnitudes apart shall we?)
And so we blogged, exchanged notes, offliners, mails, flowers, chocolates, stories about families, husbands, boy friends, pregnancies, heart breaks, M-I-L rants, laying-a-parent-to-rest crisis, teething problems, teenage mythophobias, child loss, blogger-turning-author, blogger-turning-snobbish-author, blogger-turning-best-friend and more that this space is not meant for as my blog is UG rated!!! And yes we met too, over coffee, dinner, ice creams, lunch, drinks, giggles over mid night calls and played pranks like we did with the kids we grew up with!!!
All honky dory and makes you go awwwwww right???? WRONG??? I mean, I love my blog friends and the close association, but that is exactly what has made me so post conscious! That I cannot post about the problem one of my friends is having battling a divorce and the other battling the ‘other women’ syndrome. or the rants, bitching, appauling mindsets which so often came naturally are now read and re-read as drafts a zillion times. Losing the mask and exposing your skin makes you so vulnerable that you crave for another mask I guess?(Those who can – hats off to you, but I still squirm at the thought of “what if he/she really discovers that this is about him/her”???)
Is it only me, who feels that the blogging scene has become more pressurized (to churn out readworthy posts and WW(s) ) rather than a rant place, because now THEY know who are YOU?
Don’t tell me it’s only ME!!!! 
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and thus they spoke...
Blogadda!
Nope its not you, I guess as we start to mingle and get more friendly its difficult to write about them, Like now i had this post all set to be posted and all it had was about a girl who has a blog, and what she writes , i think she is from mumbai.. and has this post telling what is wrong.. That how she cant write about what she nad her blog friends have talked about..
Now i was wondering shud i put the post up or will she kind of have a eureka moment and know it is about her i am writing about
Although it may be possible the eureka moment night not happen hmmm decisions decisions… What to do
and I am firstttt toooo
Yes
Lol! What an insight!!!
Glad you found it that way
or did u manage to have the EUREKA moment
No re not yet
good luck
Ohhhh thank you ji
Sigh, no it’s not only you. You know what, I changed from my old url to here, asking for anonymity, hoping that I would be less conscious about what I write now, since no one knows me. That whole assumption came back to bite me, now that I know almost everyone who was once just a ‘reader’! And with that, the consciousness is back too. Nothing can be done about that really
See I knew I wasn’t alone
U my soul sister
What a telepathy!!!
पटना की गंगा,
हरिद्वार की गंगा में
श्याम को जलाये हुए
और पानी में तैरते हुए दिये
भूल नहीं सकती …..
लेकिन
इलाहाबाद के पास बहेते बहेते
वो सब पेट में समा लेती है ….
हर जगह
नये भक्त नये भगवान् ,
सबका सुन कर
सागर दिखतेही
अपने आप को भूल जाती है .
अपना ब्लॉग भी वैसाही होना चाहिए…:-)
Lol!!!! Apke charan kahan hai devi .. I mean how do u come up with such brilliant interpretations each time??? Hugs!!!
old age?
Lol!! No way … Who called u old? The Punto guy .. Wait ill beat him up!
U know my thoughts on this and this was partly the reason why i stayed anon for so long…but u irresistible ones made me wanna be friends and i dont regret it.
But somewhere DQ – the best part is we became friends coz we didn’t judge each others thoughts in the beginning, we are friends with no “ties” and i think through our blog we need to be true to yourselves!!!
or worst case shift URL’s (p.s. i am non judgemental so give me ur new URL
)
LOL
Am glad to be on that list too 
That I agree
I know and trust me Nuts I was so recalling our “yellow treee” conversation that day as I typed this! And yes I am thankful for the bunch of friends this blog world has provided me – no qualms. But just that now u guys know me and can visualise me and stuff and so writing about the thing which u guys know the the conection to or if it conencts any one of you does make me a bit uncomfortable -for earlier iwouldn’t care about hurt but now I do!!!
Yes yes u n non judgmental, u tagged me as a ignorer, bad girl et al – because I didn’t reply to your mail for 1 day!!!
but that u are no…
Of course not.. me the most innocent one around!!!
Laughs her guts out! and continues to laugh and laughes even more…Girl…u are funny…innocent…Hahahahaha
Here drink water .. If you choke to death whom will I bug?
It’s me too who feels that way. I generally rely on the sarcasm to escape unscathed but there are times when people are close enough to see through it.
Never mind, vent all you want to. This is your space and you aren’t hurting anyone.
Me too D, I try my best to resort to sarcasm, funny lines and quote stuff in the light sense. But then there are direct moments too when I itch to vent out and somewhere a few faces and names do not alow me!!
But thanks … rant coming up!
I know what you mean and feel… have gone through it so many times. Haven’t written about some issues, coz I believed the people in question might read it on my blog but have have written to give messages like “Return my books” or “Wash your hands” or “You have a spoilt brat”
And few have got the message too!!
Me too, have written about smaller rants, or tainted bigger ones to get tagged DQ and normal ramblings, but the larger issues that bother me, it somewhere unsettles me that thye know me!!!
I don’t see any problem in being open and writing what you feel here since this is your space and was created to cater to your rants’ mood in the first place,isn’t it?
secondly as Nuttie said we NOW know most of bloggers around but earlier we were anon and still became friends today …so doesn’t matter much what you write or whom you write about today…I think most of us would know how to keep blogging life and personal life separate
getting my point ? so go ahead and bare your heart
rant baby rant 
Tu aajkal har kisi ko ‘baby’ bolne ke mood mein kyun hai Nu??
Ranting baby, but somewhere not able to open up! Don’t know guess I am being too judgmental about my own self!!!
Its not just you but we all go through this… Initially when we all did not know about each other it was so easy to write anything that came to our mind but there was a curiosity to know more about each other and now that we know everyone there is a sense of consciousness that guides whatever we post… But at the end of the day I still feel that knowing all the people on blogosphere is so special and ultimately they have known us the way we are and so I think they would not mind if we post whatever we feel….
True that Tan! Loved every word u said! But trust me joining FB ruins the little bit of public anon that u have .. like if u were in FB right now, I would have got you married to Brat!1
And that is why I’ am not of FB and have no plans to join any soon…
So that no one knows of your Choti si lubbbb story
Well my blog theme and my passion for fiction writing gives me full liberty to write about anything I wish and also about any situation I please
Though I too am not so anon anymore and quite a lot of blog-buddies know me personally,posting openly would definitely be a challenge if I were to write about anyone I thought read my blog
The best approach being, write an unbiased true story without leaving any hints of the people involved, to vent out your heart and yet not hurt anyone
I wish I was as talented as you CB!!!!
Girl you make me so J!!!!
Hugs but, kudos to the brilliant stories you churn out!
Come on Sags,it’s just my childhood habit of making up stories from little things that has flared to a full fledged fiction writing blog in adulthood
The next time you wanna vent out, make it into a story
hahaha
kuch paane ke liye kuch khona padta hai.
but getting sooooo many awesome friends.. isn’t it a good bargain
..Aur kuch Paah!! Paah!!! kar kone walon ko kya hehte hai S’ji?
why do i have a feeling that you shifting your loyalties from Tan over here?? ;roll:
Yakshi I need you!!!!
How do i come into all this… You just have to drag me sags… Wait till I meet you…
Ya then you can rattle off the Brat puran on my face eh?
Ha ha … true that S!!! It’s a wonderful feeling to have so many close friends!!!
Yeah, there are these moments too….
Sometimes, I feel choked for not being able to write abt someone…..for all I know they might be reading my blog….over a period of time, the readers decide the kind of rants or posts I do….
I do think of having one more blog….without revealing my identity to anyone, so that I’ll be free to write what I feel like.
I thought that too Uma, but with the way life is treating me and me barely having time to blog hope, I wonder how will I manage. Also, this blog has been my baby the one who’s stuck by me through thick and thin, how do i take away the personal touch from it?
No need to take the personal touch….I know its tough, in the present scenario.
But I love it, for the way it is…let it just be…
And I love you for the way you are!!!
Hugs! 
I think I still write whatever and whenever I feel like
Bcoz I know my friends have accepted me with all that and let me know what they actually feel abt it
I wish i could cultivate that attitude Swaru .. seriously u awe me!!!
maybe once I land in hyd u can teach me the tricks
Hugs!!!